Sometimes, I wonder what life would be like without me. Sometimes, I wonder if I really am not deserving of being loved. Tonight is the night when I feel this way. I really want to cry and express my feelings, but everytime I do so, the words just come out wrongly. 

I wonder if you love me. If you do, then why didn't you stay? I know that I was the one who asked for a break but, cant you see that I need you? I want to prove myself that I can quit cutting because of you but now, what's the point in doing so?

Should I just leave this world?

Cafe Hopping

Hey, I'm back! It's been a while since I last updated this space but nonetheless, lets get on to today's post :)

So, yesterday (24.03.14) I went cafe hopping with Asyiqin. We didn't really went to many cafes because most of them were closed on Monday. :( (Lesson learnt - Do not go cafe hopping on a Monday) Nevertheless, we had a great time :)

The first cafe we went to was Drury Lane. It is located at Tanjong Pagar Rd. It is a bit far from the mrt station and we ended up getting lost. However, the experience there is amazing! We didn't really try the main dishes but, we tried the cake. It was simply mouthwatering and the amount they served was just nice :) The downside, however, is that it was hot inside. It was hotter inside than outside. I was sweating like a mad cow but I didn't care because the atmosphere was so great! No wonder it was crowded.....

I forgot to mention that we tried the Carrot Cake and the Chocolate Glazed Caked which was their special for that day. It was delicious and it's as if the sweetness of the cake exploded in my mouth! PS. Did I mention that almost all their staffs were extremely cute :-) :-) :-)

Next, we went to Cake Spade. Cake Spade is located near Drury Lane so, we did not have to walk that far to find it. It is very easy to find too. :) I was not feeling the urge to eat something sweet because of all the sweetness from my meal at Drury Lane. Hence, I went for something citrus - Lemon Tart. Hmmmm. how should I say this? The Lemon Tart was sort of ok, it was not really that extraordinary... Maybe, I'm just not a fan of tarts. //shrugs// However, the drinks they sold were amazing. They sold Arizona Tea Bottles in so many flavors. If you don't know what Arizona is, it's a tea brand produced in USA and rarely found in Singapore. I learned about Arizona through many youtubers! (Eg. Bethany from Macbarbie07) I got the Lemon Tea while Asyiqin got the White Tea with Blueberry. Both of them were splendid. I would recommend this to tea lovers! Anyway, moving on to the design - it is extremely fine. It is beautiful. It is modern with an atmosphere that a cafe should have. It is art. Although it is beautiful, it is too small! I believe it could only fit less than 15 people... Well, that's a bummer. 

Even though it was small and the tart was not that good, I still had a great time! :) Next, we went to Island Creamery located at Holland Village. I know it's not a cafe but I heard it was good and I really wanted to try out their ice-cream! So, I did and it was amazing! They sold Teh Tarik ice-cream. How cool is that?! I got the Teh Tarik ice-cream of course and also, the Soursop ice-cream. I know the combination is a bit weird.... but still. Asyiqin got their mudpie and it was delicious. The downside, however, is that it was so hard to find it! The place felt like it did not fit and the atmosphere is horrible. I believe it's only that outlet with that kind of atmosphere....

Well, that was all the places we visited. :) After that, we spotted a good place and did a little bit of a photoshoot. Hehehehe, so perasan (oops). After our mini photoshoot, we headed for Orchard because I wanted to drop by Innisfree. Innisfree is a korean skin wellness and makeup brand which uses ingredients from Jeju Island. Their endorser is Lee Min Ho!! It used to be only in Korea but now, it has come all the way to Singapore! Obviously, I must go. So, on the way there, I don't know what was going on but there was a huge sale at ION Orchard. Pull&Bear was having a sale and I've always wanted something from them. So, I ran inside :-) :-) :-) ((((typicalatikah)))) However, I only got one clothing from them because I wanted to shop at Innisfree... But I got something nonetheless! Then, there was a sale at H&M but I didn't buy anything :((( Finally, headed for Innisfree and spent alot over there! I spent over $90 on makeup and skin care..... but it's ok. ^^ I also applied for membership and got a lot of samples! Hehehe, I was damn elated. Anyway, this will be it for now! Bye! :)

Frozen

Top: Knitted Taupe Sweater from a shop on Carousell

Bottoms: Dark Purple Ankle Pants from Uniqlo

Bag: Gift

Necklace: Scape

Hey guys! Its Atikah! So, I'm just going to write what I've been doing for the past few days. These past few days have been really terrifying but at the same time, exciting. So, I'm just going to write down what happened that made me so scared. LOL

Apparently, last two weeks, Asyiqin and I went for a job interview at Fish&Co. We were so fucking scared. I was literally freaking out but Asyiqin was calmer than me obviously. Anyways, I got the job in the end. So yay! I started working the next day though

The next day was my braces appointment. My dentist said that for this appointment, she was going to put rings in my teeth. Basically, I freaked out. But in the end, even thought the appointment was long, it was not really painful.Oh and she told that I had to do gum contouring. Obviously, I agreed because I don't really like my gums. So, yay again! Anyway, gum contouring is a need for me because she said that I had too much gum........ BUT YAY FOR GUM CONTOURING!

On that day too, it was my first day at work. I was so freaking scared. In my mind, I thought "Shit, what if I spilled the drink?" and stuff like that. But, at the end of the day, I thought I did pretty well. Not to mention there were quite a few cute guys..... //pedophile mode on// (actually, not really pedo because they are older than me lol) Anyway, I started working at Fish&Co! ^~^

I also did some changes to myself. Like cut my hair and dyed it red! Finally, I dyed my hair! My hair looks really short right not but I think its nice. It's messy in a nice way. (self praise is no praise but I don't care) It's softer too so hehehhehhhe. Thanks to my maid who helped me cut!

The first 3 pictures shows me with side parting and the rest shows me with natural parting.

Anyway, today, I went to transfer money to a blogshop owner to buy EXO's Christmas album!! Woohoo, saving money to buy SHINee's season's greetings... Also, went to buy presents for my sister for her birthday today! Happy birthday, sistar! Made an impromptu plan to watch Frozen with Asyiqin too. Elsa is so pretty.. *_* The movie was awesome and I love it! I want to watch Catching Fire too... :/

 Anyway, that's it for now. Going to work tmr! Hehehehe

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